-From a scale of 1 to 10, do you think
your life would be different without animals?
-I think it would be an 8 without animals
because they add so much pleasure to life.
-How else do you think
your life would be different without them?
SARAH: I could do without things like cockroaches and snakes.
JOSHUA: Well, I'm okay with snakes, as long as
they're not venomous or, like, can constrict you, or anything.
SARAH: Yeah, I'm not a big snake person.
JOSHUA: But the cockroach is just the insect we love to hate.
SARAH: Yeah, it really is.
-Have you ever felt like life is hopeless?
-When I was a teenager, I was very depressed
and I think that can be quite common
with teenagers who think a lot, you know, and are perceptive.
-Am I like that?
-You are very much like that.
-Do you have any mortal enemies?
-I would say my worst enemy is sometimes myself,
but I don't think I have any mortal enemies.
-Have you ever lied to me?
-Hmm, I probably have,
but I try not to lie to you, even though sometimes
the questions you ask make me uncomfortable.
JOSHUA: Like when we go on our walks,
some of the questions I might ask?
SARAH: Yeah. But you know what?
I feel it's really special that you and I
can have those kind of talks,
even if sometimes I feel myself blushing a little bit.
-Have you ever thought you couldn't cope
with having a child?
SARAH: Ha, I remember when you were a baby,
you had really bad colic, so you would just cry and cry.
JOSHUA: What's colic?
SARAH: It's when you get this stomachache
and all you do is scream for, like, hours.
JOSHUA: Even louder than Amy does?
SARAH: You were pretty loud,
but Amy's was more high pitched.
JOSHUA: I think it feels like
everyone seems to like Amy more.
Like, she's, like, the perfect little angel.
SARAH: Well, I can understand why you think
that people like Amy more, and I'm not saying
it's because of your Asperger's syndrome,
but being friendly comes easily to Amy,
whereas, I think for you, it's more difficult.
But the people who take the time
to get to know you love you so much.
JOSHUA: Like Ben or Eric or Carlos?
SARAH: Yeah.
JOSHUA: Like I have better-quality friends,
but less quantity.
SARAH: I wouldn't judge the quality, but I think --
JOSHUA: I mean, like, first -- like, Amy loved Claudia,
then she hated Claudia;
she loved Claudia, then she hated Claudia.
SARAH: Part of that's a girl thing, honey.
The important thing for you is
that you have a few very good friends
and, really, that's what you need in life.
-Did I turn out to be
the son you wanted when I was born?
Like, did I meet your expectations, and...?
-You've exceeded my expectations, sweetie.
Because, you know, sure, you have these fantasies
of what your child's going to be like,
but you have made me grow so much as a parent because --
-Well, I was the one who made you a parent.
You were the one who made me a parent,
that's a good point, but also because
you think differently from, you know,
what they tell you in the "parenting" books.
-Yeah.
-I really had to learn to think out of the box with you
and it's made me much more creative,
as a parent and as a person,
and I'll always thank you for that.
-And that helped when Amy was born?
And that helped when Amy was born,
but you are just so incredibly special to me
and I'm so lucky to have you as my son.